Changed version of ME

I have changed... yep i have...

- I have to push myself to visit the temple once in a week... (earlier a daily ritual) and then when i go i feel i am just doing formality... cos i just say the prayers like a parrot would and i have very little attention...

- I am getting angry/ frustrated too easily and have lost adequate control on my moods... (though i d o try)

- To some extent i have started giving back dishum dishum to people who don't understand my point... so i am not the same "finger on your lips" type girl... (though not completely yet... but i guess to quite some extent)

- i have started to believe people wont respect you unless you command the same from them.. so when U work make sure that no one eats away the credit..

- i have learnt that being quiet can never ever help you... you and only you can speak for yourself... (though i dunno if i have changed much on this front)

- i have learnt that except for a very few, friends come and move on.. Learn to accept....

I got a nice msg: People say i have changed, i have just stopped living my life their way!!

Random thoughts

Some months back i had my sis's friend come down to our place... shes a doc by profession... and just while we were chit-chatting i told my sis... these guys wud never have a ctrl+z in their profession.... CTRL+Z... i am sure i use these keys so often in a day.. just to undo something that has been done wrong.. so in a way i have the liberty to make some mistakes vis-a- vis doctors who have to pay possibly a very high price for a very small mistake... So i think these guys should have their backs patted... for the immense care they have to execute while on duty...

And then on some other day, when i was listening to music, i heard the song Jeena yaha, Marna yaha... iske siva jana kaha... and in the initial lines one guy says rokiye sahab, uske rokiye, doc kehte hai wo tamasha karega to marr jayega... Kya aap apne tamasahe ke liye kisi insaan ki jaan lenge; to which the sahab replies sher singh raju insaan nahi joker hai joker... wo jiyega bhi yahi marega bhi yahi... and suddendly i thought about the joker/clown in circus... His profession is to make people laugh... but what if his mood on a day is utterly bad... Can he afford to let his mood take over...

Now i know there may be many such professions.. but sudden th8s increased my respect for these professions... Waise to at so many times when i dont feel like working, i have to but still :)

Excellence...

A Frenchman once visited a temple under construction where he saw a sculptor making an idol of God. Suddenly he noticed a similar idol lying nearby. Surprised, he asked the sculptor, "Do you need two statues of the same idol?" "No," said the sculptor without looking up, "We need only one, but the first one got damaged at the last stage." The gentleman examined the idol and found no apparent damage. "Where is the damage?" he asked. "There is a scratch on the nose of the idol." said the sculptor, still busy with his work. "Where are you going to install the idol?"
The sculptor replied that it would be installed on a pillar twenty feet high. "If the idol is that far, who is going to know that there is a scratch on the nose?" the gentleman asked. The sculptor stopped his work, looked up at the gentleman, smiled and said, "I will know it."


The desire to excel is exclusive of the fact whether someone else appreciates it or not. "Excellence" is a drive from inside, not outside. Excellence is not for someone else to notice but for your own satisfaction and efficiency...


So true,

Its always great to excel just for yourself.. not bcos someone else wants you 2... And not to measure ur excellence by the way others see it but the way it has changed/ added to you as a person


So its so perfectly ok not to know something very basic and to ask rather than think what xyz will think and not knowing it at all.. :)

I wanted to write more.. but am in a cafe and completely uncomfi with the system... Hope to write back soon..

"Dont Make Somebody a Priority If u are just an Option for them"

A very common forward, does not really make much sense to me... How can I decide my options and priorities on the basis of what the other person thinks or feels... So according to the above saying if a person does not consider another person friend, the other person also should not care back... In that case i feel a human heart seems like a television which can be controlled by the push of a button.

Every person has his/her choice.. so probably a person that I care the most, may not even think anything about me... but does that mean i should also stop caring... and even if this means so is there any tried and tested method to stop caring for a person you care the most.. And then why be so conditional.

Extending it a little further, if of the two friends, one starts having feelings for the other... does the friendship develop a crack/ can things still work out even though the other person has no such feelings what so ever.. And if the relation changes after the person has communicated his feelings, would any person feel free to communicate their feelings?

Th8s and comments are welcome :)

Long time no see

Its been quite some time away from the blog.. and unlike initially i have stopped checking it also.. not completely... but earlier atleast once in office i would just love to check it... In all these days i have been contemplating whether to continue writing or stop and was more or less sure of stopping it... and then i also know its something i like doing the most these days.. Whenever i see something interesting, irritating, i start talking to my blog... Though i am yet not decided on whether i shall still continue to write, abhi filhaal shall write...

Have come to stay at my close friends place (uhu uhu had come to STUDY... bt have had a real good time).. Its been long since i wanted to come here but kept postponing... Saturday morning we attended an interactive session by Arun Jaitley. The session was organised and attended by entrepreneurs and professionals who thought it was time that we acted instead of merely pointing fingers at each other at times when the country and its people needed it the most. Franky i am not such a political creature... but i always wanted to be more aware..

My friend is pretty keen on joining politics along with her career. So i also joined her when she decided to go for the session. But i really enjoid listening to the talks... . A lawyer by profession, Mr Jaitely spoke lot of sense and knew exactly what he was speaking.
Three key points he discussed were governance, economic growth and national security.. He could really hold the audience to attention for an hour and something that he spoke for. He narrated one incident where in parliament someone commented to him "You have the best of both the worlds" (as in professional and politics) and he retorted.. Yes i do.. and i know no art of living without working... Obviously he was talking good about BJP, but that was not the only things he kept talking about.. He was opinion that congress has taken a non decisive approach and we have not seem many good reforms during its tenure. Also he said i told Mr. Chidambaram , u r a lucky finance minister , when you were in power you inherited a booming economy.. He also pointed out that signs of subprime were felt in 2007, but at that time all the government saw was rising inflation and sucked liquidity at a time when there was need for consumer expenditure... He said that the dream team of Mr Chidambaram and Manmohan kept day dreaming... He also said politics should be on the basis of merit and not surnames.

Indifference is not the answer. Todays youth may have a proud feeling of not being involved in politics. But i agree that when we have to have a government and we know we have a choice to choose it, it is sheer indifference and ignorance and stupidity to be proud of the fact that one is not interested in politics... Maybe all the candidates, partys are corrupt... but we still need to choose which is the best among the worst as they will be running the country for next 5 years.
I have been indifferent all the while 2. And i dont say that post this session i am totally convinced that BJP is the best party to vote for. But i think political awareness is very necessary and i think political education must be introduced in education curriculum.

Anyways... post which we came home had load of talks, discussions... had delicious lunch... watched movies... went out for dinner... All in all it was a well utilised saturday... and its been a superb stay at her place after a very long time....