Need to talk.. and found you

Somethings wrong .. terribly wrong.
I dont know what or i know but m ignoring too many things
i cant match the pace of life... too many things
i have forgotten to find time for myself
and now its ENUF
and m not even achieving much
hoping this time passes by soon cos i cant stand more
cant even type more as in office

Musings of a confused mind

Far she wants to go
Where? she does not know
The road aint well traced
New situations every moment she has faced

Failed many attempts to straighten
Some have had her trust broken
Some have left her on the way
All the while she hoped they would for lifetime stay.

She's cried, She's been sad
But she's never given up, she's glad
She still does not know where she wants to go
But far, far from the path everyone knows.

Some things..

Some random things i am trying to put down..

Never fear the consequences/ fear what will happen. cos what you fear may/will really happen. But life does not stop.

CFA may be interesting but its annoying at times 2.. and worst my habit of needing a company while studying.. Oh Muks i miss your company.. I have written half my papers through morning gyaan from you on the phone..
Some friends dont meet you so often but yet you know they are there no matter.. saale besharam picha hi nahi chodte :) Thanks Mukta, Ankita, Shweta :P
Muki dearest thanks for taking half day frm office on my bday and coming all the way.. i know its long time back.. but thnks

There are some things i want to learn/ experiment - cooking, driving, animation, some sport

I have begun story telling sessions at night to Dhrumil.. so cooking stories and thinking of good old stories is on my mind. Last night i just happened to ask him what do you want to be/ what you wont to do.. He says first i want to teach the poor, i wont charge them.. rather i will pay them and then i want to be an enggineer :)kya nek khayal hai..

Wherever i shall be, i shall be happy. I dont need 2 much money i have realised, i need my own sweet people.. my family and friends.

Back

trying to get back to writing posts
reasons
- helps get things off my mind
- love reading earlier posts (kinda traces back all moments)

and damn its difficult to write.. theres loads but nothing
a phase in life where u dont know where u r heading...
but thts ok i know things wil smoothen someday

have lost loads... and gained a little
lets see how it all works..

Nice Poem

A forward from a friend...

Its one of my favourite poems from Gibran.....the master at weaving life into simple words!
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*Marriage*

"You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.

You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.

But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another but make not a bond of love:

Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.

Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.

Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.

For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

And stand together, yet not too near together: For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow."

-Khalil Gibran.

Be yourself

She....

Mom, the most special person,

I wonder how she changed from a chirpy little girl

to such a caring, wonderful and responsible person..

From someone who gave up all her dreams and aspirations

Just to make sure the dreams aspirations of her loved ones were met..

She held each one strong,

taught right and wrong,

held tight when in pain,

all this without any personal gain..

SHE

never asked for anything in return

never complained when she was all alone..

we owe her more than in one lifetime we can give

Shes Special... Shes unique

Shes the best wonder of the world :)

ummmm

Why has it become so tuff to write.. i wonder
i have so much top put down but dunno cant just get it on paper
cant think of post title .. cant manage to write so much thats running in mind..
but still writing cos it feels good.
just on a run thru some unknown blogs.. gives me a good idea to put down monthly updates of whats happening in my life on my blog..
adios.. wil write later

Fun @ Cartoon Network.com

Its the Tom and Jerry show!!

Its so much fun... i love tom and jerry

and ab i am hooked with tom and jerry games @ cartoon network site

Hats off to the creators William Hanna and Joseph Barbera !! Muuahhh to tom and jerry!!

Give me some sunshine!!

DNA surveyed over 150 children and here's some of what they had to say:

- Listen to what we have to say

- Mom, Dad, we want more of your time... We may hate authority, but we do seek your advice. Pls be around to help us deal with the confusion.

- We want to do different things.. Homework's ok, but only if it's worth it..

When did you really see a child really as happy.. Getting enough time to play... to do things they enjoy.. not the things their parents want them to do.. I can assure the times we grew up were better... We had time for classes, for school and most importantly for play. These kids are a smart lot.. and all we are doing is making them follow the routine, monotonous life...

Tuitions have been so much in demand.. and good tuitions have been equivalent to loads of homework.. Just mugging up things is what the kids are made to do.. most wouldn't be able to answer meanings of simple words... but will write the whole essay.. writing one answer wrong in tuition amounts to writing it 10-15 times at home :(

Can you not hear a loud cry?? BACHAOOOOOOO..

Yes inculcating a habit to study is important.. but not at this cost.. A kid in 1st / 2nd standard spends on an average 7-10 hours in school, tuition, grammar classes and what not.. and then the much hated HOMEWORK... (why should one like it)... when is he to play.. many don't even have friends in vicinity to play with... Technology has touched their lives much sooner.. You can expect them to know things that even you did not in your cell phone.

Will we be compromising those smiles on their faces.. Will things just be so competitive for them right from start.. Will they have to cry each time they need parent attention

Will they sing in future

" GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE I WANNA GROW UP ONCE AGAIN!!"

I hope not...

But... We are genuinely concerned

Have you met a category of people who are just too concerned of your wellbeing.. Or about kya aap bachpan se hi aise hai?? i mean those who are not too close to you but still so worried.... uuiii maa

Few of my experiences:

- At office... i was a very quiet breed of creatures... talking to the point.. no unnecessary talks...

so one of my colleagues asked "kya tu friends ke saath bhi aise hi rehti hai"

haa haa mujhe to bhagwaan ne feviquick ka promotion karne paida kiya hai na... unless i am close to someone i wud rather keep things to myself..

- ek aunty hai meri doooor ki.. meri mom se bahut chinta wyaqt ki... aapki beti Podar college mein padhi...humari unki bachi bhi waha padhi... wo to ekdum jhakas ho gayi.. aapki beti to waisi ki waisi hi hai..

to aap kya expect karte hai ji..

- ye sawal to mujhe do logon ne pooch liya hai... kya mere aur meri behen ke bhi jagde hote hai.. nahi nahi... bilkul bhi nahi.. hum to honeymoon travels ke wo supercreatures hai.. Aspi aur Zara... are yaar unmein bhi jagde ho jate hai film ke climax mein...

- ek mera cousin aya tha ghar... not too close to me... i mean hi.. hello types.. us din he asks me so what you want to do.. (knowing ki abhi maine job chod diya hai).. MBA karna hai.. i said... thinking bus iske aage koi questioning nahi hogi.. but nahi aaj to thaan li thi mera case lene ki.. MBA ...humn... par karna kya hai.. Finance i said... haa par karna kya hai.. are mere bhai tujhe pata hai tujhe kya karna hai.. mujhse poochke kya mere plans chori karna chahta hai :)) nahi i dont really mean this.. but itni concern kyu.. and he has joined his dads business.. mostly after grad...

anyway

i am concerned of people whom i care for.. are duniya bhar ke liye concern kya dikhana.. wo bhi jhoothi... but anyway thanks to all for their concern.. after all every comment is a learning...

Aaj ki taaza khabar

May not be as taaza.. but waise bhi news channels bhi kaunsi taaza khabrein dete hai
anyway i am just putting this on blog so that i can kip looking at it again and again... and it fixes somewhere in some kopcha of my brain....

- India is ranked 134 th on UN Human development Index :( of the United Nations development program.. The index takes into account various parameters like poverty levels, literacy levels, gender related issues.. China, Sri Lanka and Bhutan ranked 92, 102 and 132 resp...
Top 10 constituted Norway (1st), Australia, Iceland, Canada, Ireland, Netherlands, Sweden, France, Switzerland and Japan...

- IMF sees strong medium term outlook for India.. It retained its projection for economic growth at 5.4 per cent in 2009...implying slower growth rate in second half of this calender year.. next year projection lowered by 0.1% to 6.4%.. this year 1st quarter and 2nd quarter growth rates 5.8% and 6.1% resp.
2008 - 7.3%
2007 - 9.4%

- According to Boston Consulting Group value of global mergers and acquisition deals is likely to drop by nearly 50% this year. The mergers and acquisitions space has witnessed only 12700 transactions with a combined valuation of mere USD 681 billion in the first 6 months of the year, with the number of deals dropping 17% from the same period in 2008.

- Net direct tax collections grew by 3.7% during the first six months of the current financial year to stand at Rs 152625 cr.. primarily guided by a 5.5% rise in corporate tax collections, reflecting an increase in corporate income.
Direct tax target for the year -
set by govt: 4,00,000 cr
original budget target: 3,70,000 cr

- Cumulative FDI inflows from 2001 till July 09 is USD 100.33 billion
Inflows for the first 4 months of the current fiscal = USD 10.49 billion
Major countries accounting for inflow - Singapore, UK, US and Netherlands
Sectors attracting FDI: service sector (max - 23% of the cumulative equity FDI inflows), followes by software, hardware, telecommunication and real estate)

- Current Mayor of Mumbai - Shraddha Jadhav (Shiv Sena)

- Engineering service Outsourcing to increase to USD 4o billion by 2020 from present level of USD 2.5 billion to USD 3 billion...

source: Nasscom newsletter

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Missing those good old days

Missin those days when
Cell wud kip ringing with calls from friends
Mail boxes wud have pleasant mails from friends.. Birthday mails from number of days (equal to your age) before ur birthday... Celebrations... Surprises
Studying at night would mean laughing with friends over phone... kuch padhke nahi hua
Laughing, crying with friends
Friends were always taken for granted.. yeh to hamesha hai nearby
Plans for movies made by friends.. (a msg in cell fone saying movie tickets are booked)
Calling up without bothering what time of day/ night it is :) or which part of universe he/she is, how busy/ free is he/she, with whom is he/she
Getting calls zillions of times from the same people
Jaane kaha gaye wo din... Life gets busy and people move on.. Ah if thats whats being a grown up.. i dont want to be.

Appreciate!!

Appreciation... isn't it what we always are on a look out for!! But how many times do we appreciate efforts of others.. Well if we do it great, if we don't we should...

At most times, we realise and understand the importance of others/ others work once its not there.. I could never have imagined that my manager cud appreciate my work and commitment as much as she did on my farewell :)) and for the first time she had examples of good work that i did... i just wonder if that was my appraisal would she speak so good... She did appreciate me otherwise but ye din to kuch aur hi tha... After a point the material returns from your job bcome minuscule and all that matters are these small, sweet things which most miss out on..

When did you last appreciate ur mom, ur dad... ur family.. ur friends... ur colleagues... ur manager.. and most importantly Urself.. Just cos i am not as intelligent as , or good looking as, or smart as... or as..... as xyz, do i always undermine myself...

Once you appreciate urself every fall, every problem, every issue can be tackled with lot of ease.. when you appreciate urself... even if others miss to do... it doesn't matter... why shd i form an impression of me based on what xyz says abt me.. ok i don't know stuff maybe... but appreciate the fact that you know that you don't know and learn :)

When you find someone has worked hard on something but yet it is not up to the mark.... appreciate the efforts... if not the end result.. There are 2 options here

1. You appreciate : The person learns and does better the next time..

2. you screw his/ her a** : He losses all confidence and the next time he works he screws up more :))

in the end you loose

If you cant appreciate, never never devalue anyone...

baap re bahut gyaan giving ho gaya... off i go... and not to forget i appreciate you read my bakwaas...oye u dare not call it bakwaas.. remember if u cant appreciate... don't devalue this masterpiece :))

School vs Office/ Adnan Sami

Bachon ko eschool mein kyu dalte hai?? bachon ko kya sikhate hai..

office mein ye sab school mein padhaye paath kitna matlab rakhte hai??

School: Beta, hamesha sach bolo!!

Office urf Adnan: kabhi nahi, kabhi nahi

School: Karm karo fal ki chinta mat karo

Office: Fal ki taraf dhyan rakho.... karm baaki logon ko karne do!

School: Acha karm karoge, to acha paoge..

Office: Hehe!! Hehe!! Karm karoge to kuch nahi paoge

School: Badon ka adar karo

Office: Command fear !! you shall get respect free free free... chote bade go to hell

School: Mil baat ke kaam karo

Office: Cheen ke acha kaam karo

School: Early to sleep, early to rise... makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise

Office: i wont let you sleep.. so forget being healthy/wealthy or wise..

To aakhir bachon ko school mein kyu daalte hain??

How dare I

This is something i loved so much... how dare i not take out time for this
But this is not only with blogging, oops i realise i dont have tme for anything i love... or probably i dont create time..

Anyway

Came to know i am among the top two utilised team members in the team (dont know 1st/ 2nd).. it feels good... utilised as in i have good number of chargeable hours which cud be charged to the client... yeppie!!

Another yeppie!! i have decided to quit my job... but ya kuch emotional attachment ho gayi hai.. its not so easy to detach from this place which was part of my life for 2 whole years... another yeppie... i will complete 2 years in KPMG this Sunday.. Not that i love being in this place, but pata nahi suddenly knowing that it wont be there causes a lil pain... but it does give loads of happiness..

Will write later now!!

2 mahiney ho gaye...

The latest comment by matta on my blog...
Ya 2 mahiney ho gaye... and today while logging in i entered my blog addresss wrong :( not that i never wrote before, or never thought to write ... its just that time is flying by...

Lot many things have happened..
Met with an accident ...taxi went on the divider... screwed up two toes on my leg.. now all is good.. except my psyche.. sitting in cabs and autos is not as easy.. and its the same with my office friend Shweta who screwed her jaws... and when the two of us are together... u can think what happens in a cab/ auto..

Birthday was a nice sweet day.. Got wished by all close ones.. had dozed off before 12.. so got up with a call.. and then Dipti wished ... she had got a cake... all woke up... darling dhrumil cud not keep his eyes open... cake cutting.. fir calls.. slept late that night.. (though i really dint want this birthday to be somthing gud) .. It turned out really well.. went to office, desk was decorated.. i had 2 flower bunches on the desk courtesy Shweta.. ahh they dint give me much workk :) yippie!! most morn went in attending calls and then evening again cut a cake in office.. i dont know never expected would feel so touched in office.. left soon.. got excused from the evening training.. met a friend.... went to temple behind office .. took a cab to thane.. had cake again... answered many calls.. went to temple in thane.. went home ... had dinner with full family.. very simple yet a touchy day...

I really want to start studies big time now... and i am glad that i have people pushing and motivating me for the same.. i hope i can do something.. and dont put people down...

Love you all!! For being a part of my life and making it so wonderful and ....................

Nothing.. Just hope all goes well.. Scared but ya will try!!

I'm Loving it :)

A day taken off from work!! and spent lazily doing things i like...

Unlike other holidays i dint get up late this morning.. as in got up at 9 am.. and i am hooked to pc for most of the time... browsed thru mba related websites, chatted with some friends, studied for about an hour, and now finally gave my blog a makeover!! and i am loving it...

Though i love black and so liked the earlier template, but having a black backdrop also meant deciding font colours and stuff, which i hope i can get over with on a blue backdrop... and i simply love the picture ... girl on the swing on an upside down tree in the sky :) reminds me of the song... aaj mein upar, aasmaan niche; aaj mein aage, zamana hai piche

And my friend alltalkandnoaction has tagged me for having my poll of 10 best romantic bollywood movies... and i by mistake th8 it was for the 99 questions i posted in the last post.. now recalling 10 best hindi romantic movies for an amnesiac person like me is an arduous task!! though i can never forget the bestest bollywood movie... its none other than jab we met.. which is her fav too.. waow... i can just watch it over and over again... such a simple and sweet story...

Recalling some moments in the movie:

by God, mujhe bachpan se hi shaadi ka bada shauk hai...
mein sochta hu agar geet hoti to kya karti, aur wahi karta hu
hotel decent (no pawfect name than this)
Jab koi kuch sache dil se chahta hai wo use mil jata hai...
Both of them jumping in the river...
Kitni stupid thi mein, isliye ho raha ye sab mere saath,
Aur kis se darr lagta hai, shareholders se, kal shareholders ke saath meeting karao (so if u fear something, fight it on face)
His respecting his moms contribution for the company...
Wo foto jalake flush karna, wo fone lagake gaaali dena... :)
Mujhe Karate aata hai :)
Akeli ladki, khuli tizoori ki tarah hoti hai... jawani mein, mein bhi akele ghumta tha, par tab mein mard tha... matlab abhi bhi mard hu
And Shahid telling Kareena after being asked that he loves her: haan bahut jyada, par wo meri problem hai.... asi kuch bhi feel kar sakte hai yaar... (but assuring it wudnt cause any problem to her)
Though i dint understand what did Kareena like in that Anshuman (Champak he seems)
Songs are fabulous...
And finally shahid explaining geet that she shd marry the one she loves...
Shaadi ke baad pehla affair mere saath kar lena :)

Shahid is super cool in this movie, so is Kareena :) (i dint like any of them earlier)
i think i need quite some time to make a poll of 10 best romantic movies...

Anyways, time to log off ... Enjoiii